Nothing much to blog about really. Nothing eventful has happened. Just stress and more stress from work. Sometimes I ask myself, why lah I decided to go into the Sales force when I have a baby force at home?
I dont know. Its not like I work till 8pm everynight. In fact, the latest I get home is 6:30pm and it takes only 8 minutes for me to get home. But I sacrifice at least 2 hours on Saturdays to go to work just to make phone calls. 2 hours does not seem alot but it is enough to make me feel guilty for leaving my kids.
Some single agents think that married agents like me have balance in our lives. We work hard and play hard. We have 8 hours to make the best out of a day and come 5:30-6pm, we force ourselves to turn our laptops off, bring our laptop home and spend time with our family. 90% of us who have families do not work from home (how to???). As for the singles, sometimes, they do work from home, work till 7pm and half of Saturdays. They go home, think about thier production numbers (I do too!) and then feel miserable. Good thing the kids makes it impossible to think about the numbers.
Sigh...maybe I am going through a transition. I have a history of moaning and whining through transition, kicking and screaming when it gets hard but always manage to hit the target.
Maybe next month, I can handle this stress crap better...InsyaAllah.
In the meantime, I am so happy to have spent the entire weekend with my girls without working on Saturday (next week must work Saturday tho). 48 whole hours of being surrounded by my girls and giving them unconditional love...priceless!!!
Also in the meantime part II, the husband has been working ALL weekend. I hardly see him. But we do talk on the phone a lot. I do miss him so much but what to do. Work is work, at least he came back from work with chocolate covered donuts this morning.
My daughter is in awe, as to how I have lost this much weight (30 lbs or more?) by eating junk all weekend? Take a doze of stress, sure to burn your fats and brains!
Suraya is a pro in walking now. This morning, I forgot to put the gate up by the kitchen entrance. I came out of the bathroom, she walked out of the kitchen and handed me a glass that she had taken from the glass cabinet. She was smiling and I was freaking out! Dont know why she loves the kitchen. If the cats love the kitchen why not the baby eh?
Kakak Mas has been such a couch potato since spring break last week. But she is making good money babysitting Suraya. So much money that she went on a shopping spree last weekend and I just watched, my money gone to her babysitting fees! Perfect sister she is...wish her brother is here too.
Abang Mat is doing very well in school. We are surely on the road to recovery in terms of relationship. We talk on the phone at least once a week, email once a week. He speaks to everyone at home. The other day, he called and said that he was out sick from school. Sakit kepala, so he said. But all was well my dad said, Mat was just getting the blues we thought. We all miss him to death. Believe it or not, he has a girlfriend now. Very mentel right? A girl from CHIJ, her parents are police officers. Good, at least I know he will be in 'good hands' hehehe.
My kids, believe it or not, I miss or should I say LONG to have the 3 of them in front of me....sigh!
Here's Suraya taken last weekend. Isn't she an angel? How to marah her when she does something bad? Those angelic eyes.
I dont know. Its not like I work till 8pm everynight. In fact, the latest I get home is 6:30pm and it takes only 8 minutes for me to get home. But I sacrifice at least 2 hours on Saturdays to go to work just to make phone calls. 2 hours does not seem alot but it is enough to make me feel guilty for leaving my kids.
Some single agents think that married agents like me have balance in our lives. We work hard and play hard. We have 8 hours to make the best out of a day and come 5:30-6pm, we force ourselves to turn our laptops off, bring our laptop home and spend time with our family. 90% of us who have families do not work from home (how to???). As for the singles, sometimes, they do work from home, work till 7pm and half of Saturdays. They go home, think about thier production numbers (I do too!) and then feel miserable. Good thing the kids makes it impossible to think about the numbers.
Sigh...maybe I am going through a transition. I have a history of moaning and whining through transition, kicking and screaming when it gets hard but always manage to hit the target.
Maybe next month, I can handle this stress crap better...InsyaAllah.
In the meantime, I am so happy to have spent the entire weekend with my girls without working on Saturday (next week must work Saturday tho). 48 whole hours of being surrounded by my girls and giving them unconditional love...priceless!!!
Also in the meantime part II, the husband has been working ALL weekend. I hardly see him. But we do talk on the phone a lot. I do miss him so much but what to do. Work is work, at least he came back from work with chocolate covered donuts this morning.
My daughter is in awe, as to how I have lost this much weight (30 lbs or more?) by eating junk all weekend? Take a doze of stress, sure to burn your fats and brains!
Suraya is a pro in walking now. This morning, I forgot to put the gate up by the kitchen entrance. I came out of the bathroom, she walked out of the kitchen and handed me a glass that she had taken from the glass cabinet. She was smiling and I was freaking out! Dont know why she loves the kitchen. If the cats love the kitchen why not the baby eh?
Kakak Mas has been such a couch potato since spring break last week. But she is making good money babysitting Suraya. So much money that she went on a shopping spree last weekend and I just watched, my money gone to her babysitting fees! Perfect sister she is...wish her brother is here too.
Abang Mat is doing very well in school. We are surely on the road to recovery in terms of relationship. We talk on the phone at least once a week, email once a week. He speaks to everyone at home. The other day, he called and said that he was out sick from school. Sakit kepala, so he said. But all was well my dad said, Mat was just getting the blues we thought. We all miss him to death. Believe it or not, he has a girlfriend now. Very mentel right? A girl from CHIJ, her parents are police officers. Good, at least I know he will be in 'good hands' hehehe.
My kids, believe it or not, I miss or should I say LONG to have the 3 of them in front of me....sigh!
Here's Suraya taken last weekend. Isn't she an angel? How to marah her when she does something bad? Those angelic eyes.
This is how you drink bubble tea from the straw...geddit?
Shes a pro in book flipping, she loves to read!
Tell me, how to get mad at her with that face? She smiles 24/7!
2 comments:
Suraya grow big so quickly. Soon she can help you in the kitchen. I love to see her curly hair. So adorable. Don't forget to pat yourself on your back for all the work you've accomplish.
hye..first time leaving comment here..
wah..cuteenyer ur daughter..
chomel chomel
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