So much in my head...too much to say but don't know what to write. Makes sense? Nothing does when it comes to Elly.

Have you ever wondered or done a self reflection of yourself? I do that all the time, sometimes too much. Not that I am always all about myself (haha!) but I know that I was born and am here for a reason...not for myself but for the people that I love. I know that I am always here for my friends to rely on me to make them happy, to pour their hearts out at me and for me to pass on my good energy to them.

Many a times when I sense that my beloveds are not happy, I tend to ask myself what I had done wrong. So much so that my BFF says that I sometimes try too hard to make others happy hence, I forgot about myself.

I wish that I could disengage some telepathic dreams that I get with some people who are deep in my heart. Not that I am not appreciating the sense that God had given me but...when I get these 'signals', I tend to think too deep and explore into the dreams...until I get the reason why that dream came to visit.

Last night, I dreamed of a couple of bears. Baby bears. I was visitng my mom's friend when a couple of naughty friendly bears came to me at the front yard and started licking me. From what I know, dreaming of a bear means that I am in rivalry with someone over someone that I love, and if the bear climbed a tree or branch or rock, the rivalry will be in my favor. Stupid huh? But as I drove to work, I kept thinking of how friendly that black bear was to me :)

Husband, am I fighting with the 'bears' that you were talking about? Hahahaha...

Let me go see who I am in rivalry with....

Note to self: Make sure I love with all my heart, not half, not a quarter

Matt's visit will come up next post...stay tuned