Update : Tuesday, 03/28
Ahhh, Tuesday morning. I am feeling better. Thank you to those who had given me encouraging words.
Thats the wonder of blogging. You get mad, you typed, you felt better.
My 'flash' project was finally completed! So now I have the ongoing project that I have to manage and at least I won't feel that crazy today. But then again, you never know!
Emotional feelings...I think I have gotten over it. I don't get mad for too long. Life goes on, and I am happy again.
I still get to keep my son, keep my beloved father and about the ex friend...who is he again?
Cheers everyone!
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Sometimes it gets hard when you have to handle too many things at a time. From work to personal accounts. Do you also believe that you can get so dogged down by so many nitty gritty stuff that could just turn into someone negative momentarily?
From my son doing a little mess at school and needs make up work for some of the assignments he had missed, to a friend who turned into an EX friend due to his hypocricy, to my dad who always thinks that his grandkids parents sits on a pile of money to the management thinking that I have 6 sets of brains, 10 sets of hands and can finish 3 projects in one swipe and to the reps who thinks that I should be responsible for their mis'data'd' numbers in the system. All these are just so overpowering to me that I feel that I just wanted to sit by the beach and not even hear anyone's voice.
My son is still getting his back supported by me and the husband. Sure kids mess up in school. Sometimes they think that could get away with missing assignments when their parents were not looking. Maybe kids should remember why report cards were created long time ago. In America, missed assignments reflect at the end of the term on their report cards. All missed assignments will be noted. With that, parents get mad, wishing that they could shake the heck our of their kids, spank the juice out of them. And if that ever happened, parents tend to console the kid's cries and turn it into something positive. It sucks being a parent sometimes…they can lie to us and disappoint us…unfortunately, we still love them and will never lose faith in them. Sigh…
A friend. What is a friend? It surely is an open end answer eh? I was born trusting everyone and anyone once. But then I thought I was smarter…a little trust and a little faith but I still get burned by a friend. Not burned in a sense of money but burned in the sense of betrayal. I shall not talk in detail about this as I do not want to stoop as low as this friend. Pity, as much as he has disrespected my family and me, I still have the humanity to not disrespect him. May Allah bless my family's and my heart for that. I know that another friend is reading this blog and knows what I am talking about. My note to my dearest friend : I know that you mean well. But I do not condone that ex friend making you the middle person of this dilemma. I shall never drag you into this mess and I want you not to make him do this to you too. May our friendship last forever…insyaAllah. I am sure everyone hates hypocrites? That word itself makes my heart burn. If this EX friend were to ever read this? Hmmm...time to do a self reflection dude! If you can't see yourself, you might want to ask some of your friends...oh no...ex friends.
Bapak…please ampun my soul should you read this and get mad at me. I know that you love your grandson to bits. Please put trust on us as parents. That parental love does not come in terms of how many pairs of shoes they have, or how much money is spent on them. The love, care and attention on your grandkids are priceless. Why can't all grandparents think of it that way? You know that you brought me up that way too.
Work…it had buried me to the state of 'drowning' me. Now…how come I still have time to blog? Heh…taking a big break after a 'flash' project so that I could take on another ongoing project that is due anytime (means : when the boss 'hollers' means that that’s my deadline). Help? I'll be darned if I get even a teeny bit of help. Can't get help from co workers as 70% of my job is confidential. The rest of the 30% is the daily routine that throws me off. Yes…I do get frustrated. How am I to finish a project when I get another call for another 'flash' (means : now and don’t miss a minute…deadline means NOW). So the boss called and asked me how I am doing with another project…my answer? 'I am still buried with the current one…and I need help'. What does 'help' mean to the boss? Hopefully he could read my mind right now…it means : Do not call me till tomorrow OK?
OK am done abusing my blog.
From my son doing a little mess at school and needs make up work for some of the assignments he had missed, to a friend who turned into an EX friend due to his hypocricy, to my dad who always thinks that his grandkids parents sits on a pile of money to the management thinking that I have 6 sets of brains, 10 sets of hands and can finish 3 projects in one swipe and to the reps who thinks that I should be responsible for their mis'data'd' numbers in the system. All these are just so overpowering to me that I feel that I just wanted to sit by the beach and not even hear anyone's voice.
My son is still getting his back supported by me and the husband. Sure kids mess up in school. Sometimes they think that could get away with missing assignments when their parents were not looking. Maybe kids should remember why report cards were created long time ago. In America, missed assignments reflect at the end of the term on their report cards. All missed assignments will be noted. With that, parents get mad, wishing that they could shake the heck our of their kids, spank the juice out of them. And if that ever happened, parents tend to console the kid's cries and turn it into something positive. It sucks being a parent sometimes…they can lie to us and disappoint us…unfortunately, we still love them and will never lose faith in them. Sigh…
A friend. What is a friend? It surely is an open end answer eh? I was born trusting everyone and anyone once. But then I thought I was smarter…a little trust and a little faith but I still get burned by a friend. Not burned in a sense of money but burned in the sense of betrayal. I shall not talk in detail about this as I do not want to stoop as low as this friend. Pity, as much as he has disrespected my family and me, I still have the humanity to not disrespect him. May Allah bless my family's and my heart for that. I know that another friend is reading this blog and knows what I am talking about. My note to my dearest friend : I know that you mean well. But I do not condone that ex friend making you the middle person of this dilemma. I shall never drag you into this mess and I want you not to make him do this to you too. May our friendship last forever…insyaAllah. I am sure everyone hates hypocrites? That word itself makes my heart burn. If this EX friend were to ever read this? Hmmm...time to do a self reflection dude! If you can't see yourself, you might want to ask some of your friends...oh no...ex friends.
Bapak…please ampun my soul should you read this and get mad at me. I know that you love your grandson to bits. Please put trust on us as parents. That parental love does not come in terms of how many pairs of shoes they have, or how much money is spent on them. The love, care and attention on your grandkids are priceless. Why can't all grandparents think of it that way? You know that you brought me up that way too.
Work…it had buried me to the state of 'drowning' me. Now…how come I still have time to blog? Heh…taking a big break after a 'flash' project so that I could take on another ongoing project that is due anytime (means : when the boss 'hollers' means that that’s my deadline). Help? I'll be darned if I get even a teeny bit of help. Can't get help from co workers as 70% of my job is confidential. The rest of the 30% is the daily routine that throws me off. Yes…I do get frustrated. How am I to finish a project when I get another call for another 'flash' (means : now and don’t miss a minute…deadline means NOW). So the boss called and asked me how I am doing with another project…my answer? 'I am still buried with the current one…and I need help'. What does 'help' mean to the boss? Hopefully he could read my mind right now…it means : Do not call me till tomorrow OK?
OK am done abusing my blog.
13 comments:
Oh Ely! You sound like you've got a lot on your plate right now... but... I'm sure you feel better after "you're done abusing your blog." Hahaha. I always do.
Take it easy Ely. Meh peluk sikit!
mumsgather, yes i actually did feel better after abusing my blog. at least when i saw my boss a few hrs ago i told him,'U're one cruel man!' hehehe.
mammal, no time to peluk, now must kemas to go home hehehe. but i have time to kiss u...muahs!
Ely, bila masalah sekali harung datang bertimpa-timpa, kita rasa letih kan?
Trust me, it wil come again and again but we get thru it everytime, insyaallah.
but now kita ada blog untuk adu dumba kan kan kan :)
Ely,
hmm.. about friends.. I don't have friends, I have acquitances. Once bitten twice shy.. That's why am a loner and love every minute of it.. :)
Anyway, wish you well and hope your personal issues will be sort out tomorrow or the day after, Insha Allah. :)
I know this is cruel, ma'am. But you made me feel that I don't have a single problem in the world, compared to yours, that is.
Thank you for this entry. Cheers, ma'am. No worries.
Look at it this way, if you have problems (or stress) it means that you are living!
Hehehe .. you and me both. I'm stressed at work. Tapi blog mesti blog!
Hang in there!!. Things will be better OK. Noone is free of problems, it's how we handle it that make us the better person (positively speaking).
i am feeling so much better now after the entry. my flash project was done, so we have an ongoing one...so at least i wont go crazy from now on.
the emotional one...hmm, i have gotten over it somehow. i dont carry my feelings with me to much...life's too short for that :)
kak kusyi, memang letih. blog nih kan mcm journal. u say it and u will feel better.
suriyati, no..i am not a loner. i have many acquaintances but i do have close friends. i dont think i can live w/o friends. i think this is the nature of having friends...u know what i mean?
bergen, thanks. thats why its always good to make comparison with others and know how lucky u are :)
qoth...i think i am still breathing! work is work blog is blog! hehehe
auntyN, betul tuh u ckp. it makes a person stronger kan?
oh ely! here's a hug! been too busy myself lately too and I'm sure things are getting better for you, cheer up!
I like this post. Because I can see the real Ely behind it. Not to say that I don't enjoy your other posts, I do!! Tremendously! But this post is real, without any veils or shrouds. About real problems. And real people. And getting real about it all.
The blog is here to be abused anyway. Capitalise on that.
Glad to see that you're ok now. *BIG HUG*
ayu, thats ok cos u're enjoying urself there. what does it matter eh? just make sure u come back with them dark chocs that i pesan tau!
mama rock, thank you....huggs back for ur stress at work!
blabs dahling, isnt it? i know, people who know me in person can judge me for writing this on my journal. but i said what i needed to say and i felt better. this beats the ole diary anytime...dont have to write hehehe. i am feeling better, its wednesday, the boss was not in the office yesterday so i could breath so much better! todays another day tho hehehe.
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