I tend to realize again...

Do you believe that every change in your life comes with a reason? Does it make you do a self reflection?

As soon as I saw the pregnancy test and the result was what we had been waiting for, we were all delighted. Unlike being a first time mom, I was not afraid, not nervous…just excited that our family is growing. Growing into a bigger happy family.

Then after a few days, the self-reflection began. Is our family going to be bigger, stronger and happier? And what have I done and will do in my part to make my family as such? With the bundle of joy, this little one will be LOVE by itself. Like peope say, big stuff come in small packages!

Also, while I am going through a body change, turning into one huge potato and eventually walk like a penguin before the little one burst out in due time, I tend to feel…a feeling that only mothers could feel….the love for my kids.

I realize now that I love my kids so much, that no other material could replace them. What made me realize this? Well you know, in our everyday lives, we tend to take things for granted. We know that we love our kids ands spouse but sometimes a good significant change could make us realize that we love them THAT much!

The kids' response to the pregnancy, the way they treat me extra special, panicking when I start throwing up and making sure that I swallow that cookie, though I am trying not to eat junk food in this early stage, is enough to show that they love me, they care and that they want to be part of the pregnancy. But this does not make them perfect kids…they still bicker, don’t listen to their parents at times and tend to slack in their chores.

And all I have to say about my lovely kids is that, Ibu loves you more than anyone else in this world!!! And I know that our family will definitely be bigger, stronger and happier.

No, how can I forget the husband…who is part of this conception? Priceless as his expression was when he first saw the digital pregnancy test, he has been the wonderful husband that I have dreamed of all my life (ahemm, am I sounding fake yet? Hehe). He's there to hear me whine 'Oh I have lost 5 more lbs, how can that be?', 'Oh I am not feeling good…I am sleepy…now I am nausea!'. And he's the one in the kitchen getting me that whole wheat bread at 5:30 in the morning to contain the morning sickness. I think I have also heard him saying to the kids,'Now, make sure your ibu does not do laborous chores. You need to help her whenever you can OK?'.

I went to the Motherhood boutique the other day and was looking at maternity outfits (must 'aim' which ones I like first!) and the sales assistant asked if I would like to to try some outfits on. I said 'Nah, the husband's waiting outside, don’t want to rage him'. The sales assistant then said,'Oh don’t worry, he will wait. Husbands are nicer to pregnant wives you know!'. Aaaahhhh. How right she is!

So last night, I was browsing on the internet looking for walking shoes. The husband said,'You have already bought that Coach purse online today…what are you looking for now?'. And I responded,'But husband, I am pregnant! I need a pair of walking shoes!!!' Hah! That’s exactly what the husband said…hah! Ooooh, now I need to find a Coach wallet to match the purse too!