I have lost touch...on how to blog like a normal person. Eversince what happened 2 years ago and having a baby who always disallows me to use the computer, blogging can either be a chore or something that is less personal.
So I decided to look at my old blogs. Back in 2005 when I loved to blog, got hooked on it and just would not stop blogging. Always something to talk about. Unlike now, nothing really to talk about. Hmmmm....
Or maybe my life has become overly complicating that it would be too long for me to blog about if I were to release my heart feelings on here.
Let me see, over a span of 2 years, alot had changed in my life. My son had moved back to Singapore, our relationship was snapped in a million pieces and I was pregnant at that time. And then Suraya was born, and our family crisis mended by itself. My kid headcount increased by one but also decreased by the same number.
The husband started caring for the baby full time when Suraya was 4 months old. Turned his life totally around. From a stepdad to a full time daddy...how brutal is that? Now? He is very proud to tell everyone around him that he is a full time dad and is loving it.
My job took a turn in a differently positive aspect. I am making more money than I used to and I realized also that in order to gain, there is the PAIN. Result from the pain? I lost about 30lbs. Yea, I am one of the smallest in the office. No...I am not a size 2 or whatever. But I if you mix me with the other co workers, I am called the Minnie Mouse. Dont be fooled, people here can be big.
Kakak Mas is going to high school this fall...high school in the US is something that I have and never will experience personally. Clueless as I can be. But from what I heard, she will have fun in high school.
Back to me, I think I have changed. Besides being older (dang, I am old!), I think I am more patient, intelligent and get tired easily. I am more tolerant with others, I do get stressed up easily but that only makes me want to solve problems quickly too.
I think I have learned to treasure the people around me and the family who is far away from me.
I hope my family far away knows that I do think of them all the time and miss them dearly. I love my life here very much and my marriage is the biggest blessing in my life that Allah had ever given me.
Sometimes people do not understand, how your life partner has great influence on you. As for me, the husband does have a great influence on me as well as the other way round. I learned to be more independent in terms of emotionally and financially, that paying the bills is top priority when I get paid and that we only have each other to trust and turn to when we are in need.
I have never had a man (who is not my father), who takes care of me, my kids and is very proactive in a marriage and relationship before. I used to depend on my family alot before I married the husband cos either at that time, I either had a dormant ex husband or I was divorced.
But I am happy, with my life. Does not mean that I have forgotten my family back home. I hope that someone would understand what I mean.
Kakak Mas came home with gazillion pictures. Will upload some here when I get the chance.
So I decided to look at my old blogs. Back in 2005 when I loved to blog, got hooked on it and just would not stop blogging. Always something to talk about. Unlike now, nothing really to talk about. Hmmmm....
Or maybe my life has become overly complicating that it would be too long for me to blog about if I were to release my heart feelings on here.
Let me see, over a span of 2 years, alot had changed in my life. My son had moved back to Singapore, our relationship was snapped in a million pieces and I was pregnant at that time. And then Suraya was born, and our family crisis mended by itself. My kid headcount increased by one but also decreased by the same number.
The husband started caring for the baby full time when Suraya was 4 months old. Turned his life totally around. From a stepdad to a full time daddy...how brutal is that? Now? He is very proud to tell everyone around him that he is a full time dad and is loving it.
My job took a turn in a differently positive aspect. I am making more money than I used to and I realized also that in order to gain, there is the PAIN. Result from the pain? I lost about 30lbs. Yea, I am one of the smallest in the office. No...I am not a size 2 or whatever. But I if you mix me with the other co workers, I am called the Minnie Mouse. Dont be fooled, people here can be big.
Kakak Mas is going to high school this fall...high school in the US is something that I have and never will experience personally. Clueless as I can be. But from what I heard, she will have fun in high school.
Back to me, I think I have changed. Besides being older (dang, I am old!), I think I am more patient, intelligent and get tired easily. I am more tolerant with others, I do get stressed up easily but that only makes me want to solve problems quickly too.
I think I have learned to treasure the people around me and the family who is far away from me.
I hope my family far away knows that I do think of them all the time and miss them dearly. I love my life here very much and my marriage is the biggest blessing in my life that Allah had ever given me.
Sometimes people do not understand, how your life partner has great influence on you. As for me, the husband does have a great influence on me as well as the other way round. I learned to be more independent in terms of emotionally and financially, that paying the bills is top priority when I get paid and that we only have each other to trust and turn to when we are in need.
I have never had a man (who is not my father), who takes care of me, my kids and is very proactive in a marriage and relationship before. I used to depend on my family alot before I married the husband cos either at that time, I either had a dormant ex husband or I was divorced.
But I am happy, with my life. Does not mean that I have forgotten my family back home. I hope that someone would understand what I mean.
Kakak Mas came home with gazillion pictures. Will upload some here when I get the chance.
3 comments:
Oit..time to get preggie again woman..Then more things to write. Go wake the hubby bunny.. Get im to work fast and furious..hehehe..
ely dearest, you've come a long long way, since the first time I got to know you. and am very happy for you with the way things have worked out. You deserve every bit of it. and am glad that things are okay with you and Mat again. Take care.
ely,
I haven't been here for a while but I'm glad things have worked out. And wow, you've dropped to size 2. That is tiny but at the same time like you said you prefer to lose weight in a healthy way. that is a wise decision.
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