I was called into the office for the second time in 2 weeks last week...for soliciting 'out of territory' markets. I did not get any disciplinary action for that but the manager wrote an email to my SF bosses about my misdeed, including the 'verbal counselling' that I received 2 weeks before. To cut the drama (ooooh heck...tonnes of drama), I 'worked from home' last Thursday and Friday to create a 4 day weekend thinking that I could clear my head, but I was wrong. My anger over that incident grew even more. 7 years in the company, NEVER have I gotten any corrective action before.
But isn't it right that when you have a growing anger and fear over something, you have to face it and not avoid it? I guess I got tired of avoiding it over the weekend and I went to work last Monday to face it. I know that I am an honest employee who is in sales and is a go getter...well, I just a teeny bit excited with what I was doing that I forgot my boundaries.
My name came up as one of the top producers in my region (Market 5) for the month of June. How did I do for the month of July? Pfffttt...$20k less that June. With Kakak Mas not being around and being called into the office twice in 2 weeks, really dampened my drive. At least I hit my target, only that now, I will have to work double hard to retain my Club status.
Makcik hope (refer to my last 2 posts) had been with me online to give me the rah rah and comforting words. She knows she can get my attention even when I am sound asleep (my YM is turned on my cell 24/7, my cell vibrates when I get YM msgs). At least I know that someone's thinking of me :)
This month of August looks promising, Alhamdulillah and insyaAllah, it stays this way. Seems like lady luck went on vacation last month and decided to come back. I have achieved 1/4 of my goal for this month already. I have 4 more weeks before I leave this office, I could take vacation time to 'not endure' this office scene but I have my numbers to maintain. I also want to prove to this manager that I am an honest employee and whichever angle I choose to sell, I will still be good at what I am doing. And when I hit that high numbers again (insyaAllah, Ya Allah I know that you are listening to my heart...hard), I can tell him to kiss my butt before I leave! *Sorry guys*
It is hard when Kakak Mas is not here. Just the husband and me to care for Yaya. We hardly have time to clean. Well, each time we try, yaya messes up again. Each time I lift the broom, yaya wants to sweep the floor too. When I try to vacuum, she pulls the cord. Sigh...
Last weekend, I brought Yaya to see her long time friend, Scarlet. Scarlet is my co worker's daughter. My co worker (daddy) is american and wife (mommy) is chinese malaysian. 2 mixed kids sitting at the playground.
But isn't it right that when you have a growing anger and fear over something, you have to face it and not avoid it? I guess I got tired of avoiding it over the weekend and I went to work last Monday to face it. I know that I am an honest employee who is in sales and is a go getter...well, I just a teeny bit excited with what I was doing that I forgot my boundaries.
My name came up as one of the top producers in my region (Market 5) for the month of June. How did I do for the month of July? Pfffttt...$20k less that June. With Kakak Mas not being around and being called into the office twice in 2 weeks, really dampened my drive. At least I hit my target, only that now, I will have to work double hard to retain my Club status.
Makcik hope (refer to my last 2 posts) had been with me online to give me the rah rah and comforting words. She knows she can get my attention even when I am sound asleep (my YM is turned on my cell 24/7, my cell vibrates when I get YM msgs). At least I know that someone's thinking of me :)
This month of August looks promising, Alhamdulillah and insyaAllah, it stays this way. Seems like lady luck went on vacation last month and decided to come back. I have achieved 1/4 of my goal for this month already. I have 4 more weeks before I leave this office, I could take vacation time to 'not endure' this office scene but I have my numbers to maintain. I also want to prove to this manager that I am an honest employee and whichever angle I choose to sell, I will still be good at what I am doing. And when I hit that high numbers again (insyaAllah, Ya Allah I know that you are listening to my heart...hard), I can tell him to kiss my butt before I leave! *Sorry guys*
It is hard when Kakak Mas is not here. Just the husband and me to care for Yaya. We hardly have time to clean. Well, each time we try, yaya messes up again. Each time I lift the broom, yaya wants to sweep the floor too. When I try to vacuum, she pulls the cord. Sigh...
Last weekend, I brought Yaya to see her long time friend, Scarlet. Scarlet is my co worker's daughter. My co worker (daddy) is american and wife (mommy) is chinese malaysian. 2 mixed kids sitting at the playground.
2 comments:
waaa....siap dukung lagi :D
You go girl!! That's the spirit!!
Muaahss from me and da boys! Yaya is getting cuter and cuter!
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