I can't believe that I am here again, pen it while I can eh?

I just asked this question in my Facebook page. 'Are you an idealist or a realist?' This question is now triggering me to blog about it.

I admit that I started off being an idealist. How can I be shameless about it? Cos if I wasn't an idealist, I would not be married to my husband who lived 6,000 miles away from me who was of totally different religion than me and who was a total bachelor who never had kids. Hmmm...maybe the husband was being such an idealist until he married me and the kids moved in hahahahaha...then the REALITY struck!

After having gone through a marriage status twice (of being divorced and remarried to another man, that is), gone through a migration (never thought I would have done this!), through a job change (of the same nature) and then another huge major job change that will happen 1 week from Monday...I realized that in order for us to achieve our ambitions, we should make it real.

It took me 17 years...yes 17 years, to be able to take this huge step of diving in to the insurance business knowing that I will do very well. The thought of working on 100% commissioned basis is not an ideal thought especially when I have kids to support, rent to cover and bills to glide us through month by month. But I know that there is nothing to lose but alot to gain.

My 'trial introduction' to selling insurance was based on the reponses of my acquaintances...the chances of them trusting me to sell them auto and home insurance. 90% says 'lets get on with it'...some says 'ok I want to switch to your company ASAP' and some says 'I want to be your first customer'. It was positively overwhelming....and my business plan grew...and grew. And then I get my 'punk' friends saying that 'Nah, I don't like your company, it sucks!' or 'I just switched from your company to another cos of a claim problem', thats a challenge and what makes me think that I can't change their minds?

The manager of the office that I will be moving to was happily surprised that I am jumping into this 'sales' arena. He likes me alot as we have worked together when my boss was in the Gulf fulfilling his military duties. I was told by the HR personnel that up to 30 resumes were received...alot came from existing sales rep achievers...but this manager picked me. Of course, I had to EARN this position. The 2 hour interviews and simulation sales interview were not easy. But I nailed it!

So...can I divert to be an idealist for just a few seconds? I would like to be a sales achiever (that is, achieve a sales Club) in 12 months, buy a home and maybe get that dream car of mine (not telling you what it is!).

Maybe I am right, in order to be a realist, you have to be an idealist!!!

Tip : sometimes when you feel that you have no confidence to achieve a task, just puff your chest up, think and know that you can do it and say 'You have to be AGGRESSIVE!!!'. Still have problems doing that? Message me, I'll help ya :)

Been a while since I last updated my blog. If only I had the computer time to update my blog. the thing is, each time I am in the midst of updating, I get interrupted by the little munchkin demanding attention. By the time I get back here, my blogging moods vanished. So lets try this one more time....uninterrupted.

Not too much happened since my last post. Boring life eh? One more week before I move to another office. I shall miss my co workers very much but at the same time excited on what I am going to undertake.

2 more weeks and Suraya will be one. I think she is about 25 lbs now, with 7 teeth. I could see a shadow of another tooth at the bottom, threatening to appear.

I think I have most another 5 lbs last week. But I am not sure if I have gained it back during Thanksgiving! 17 lbs of turkey for Thanksgiving, just for the husband, Kakak Mas and me to eat and we still have abt 3lbs of roasted turkey meat left in the fridge. The husband did a great job in slow cooking the turkey. Juicy and very very tasty!!!

Here are updated pics of my jewels in life...

Remember the South Beach Diet that I was on 2 years ago...before I got pregnant? I am on it again. Since Suraya is eating more solids now, I feel that it is time for me to start my dieting and still breastfeed.

I have lost almost 10 lbs since I started 10 days ago. Happy? well, I did not lose as much as when I first started 2 years back where I lost 13 lbs in 2 weeks. But thats okay. Baby fats are taking baby steps to melt. The last time, I could feel the 'babats' around my waistline melting, this time, I feel the hips melting. The waistline? Well, it got saggy-er (ya know, after the pregnancy and all). I know I can't bring the stepper upstairs from the garage as the crib has taken it place. This means that I will walk during lunch for 45 minutes after lunch.

Getting back on the diet was not as difficult as 2 years ago. No sugar/carb withdrawal symptoms...I just bounced off the walls when I cheated last night, eating baked beans! The keropok has only 7 gms of carb if I ate one huge one. I need to stop this!

I know I have a looooooooong way to go. I want to lose at least 20 more lbs, in 2 months? I don't know...maybe.

Oh you might be asking, how do I maintain the milk supply and pump 2x a day while at work? V8, the vegetable juice did it for me. YUMMY!!!!!!!

This has not happened to me in a long long time. I am never an impulsive buyer. Okay, I was a shopoholic but quit since I met the husband (thanks to him??).

I was on a rolld yesteday, had this $45 off coupon at my favorite women's clothes store, on every $90 I spend...cool right? Yea...the husband was very nervous before I left as I do have the potential of doing more damage.

Got my clothes, went to Macy's and was 'bowled over' by 2 things...a pair of BCBG flatties which are oh so gorgeous and a pair of Steve Madden oh so comfy sherpa boots. Should I get the flatties that I will wear for work, or the sherpa boots that will keep my feet oh so warm when I am out at nights and weekend in the winter? OR..both?

Went home, could not take my mind off of the dilemma. I dreamed of the flatties! Thats it I thought, I shall go to Macy's and buy them flatties and the husband could get me the sherpa boots.

Aaaaah, I am a proud owner of them BCBG flatties...40% off, cant beat that! Sherpa boots...$39, anyone could buy that for me hmmm???