It is time for that concert again. Second time for Kakak Mas watching this Avenged Sevenfold concert. First time for me, the husband is off the hook this time. A friend of hers wanted to much to go to this concert too so I offered to buy him the ticket. So...US$131 terkopak, 3 tickets to this deafening concert excluding gas (about 45 mile drive) and lunch.

Oh well, things we do for our kids. Its on a Saturday...at least it will force me to stop working at 1pm and go for some 'hard fun'.

Anybody has studded belt and bracelet?????

Lets not talk about work as I think I have absolutely overworked myself this week.

Finally, after 7 years, I broke my Starbucks tumbler. It broke shortly before I moved to the new office 3 months back and never get to beg the husband for another one until recently. Why beg husband for a silly Starbucks tumbler right? Cos he bought the last one for me 7 years ago, and I thought that at time a US$15 coffee tumbler was oh so dang truly freakin' expensive! 7 years later, I replaced the tumbler with the same color but different style...same price!

Blue, in electric blue. Did you remember reading the word 'beg' in the previous paragraph? Yes...cos my husband thought that it was the silliest thing for him to buy me...a Starbucks coffee cup as it had been almost 1 year that I had been drinking Starbucks coffee everyday WITHOUT the tumbler and then all of a sudden I decided to 'save' the earth. Alah...can't beg for bigger diamond ring, beg for tumbler can what right?

Again I am mentioning the word 'blue' (Ely is in the 'repeating' mode, she must be tired!). I used to be in denial of admitting to a favorite color...so that I would not offend the other beautiful colors in the world. Why? Cos I don't own blue outfits except for my company shirts which I wear every Wednesday, I wear black 70% of the time, jeans are my favorite pair of pants besides those tight corduroy pants (hahaha!). But but but, I have a blue car, a range of nice shiny electric and cobalt blue pens in my drawers, a blue personal pilot rollaway bag AND a blue Starbucks tumbler! I don't wear my blue but I love having blue around. Do you have a favorite color too?

For now, I am going to 'smell' caramel macciato to sleep.

How was Valentine's Day? Well, to me, V-day is nothing but a marketing marketing marketing scam. We really do not go out to dinner just cos its V-day (but we did!...all 4 of us). But the husband buys flowers for me and candies for the ladies in the house. Last year, he surprised mak with a box of See's candies. Must be mak's first time receiving candies on V-day. She was pleasantly surprised :)

This year's V-day, I was thinking of my son. Mat is 15 now...Secondary 3 in school. this is the peak of his testosterone development.

Our relationship is beginning to re-develope. After what happened 2 years ago, it seems that we are both trying to mend and reconnect again. It is not hard to do when the both parties have the same goal to reconnect.

We talk on the phone at least once a week. I wish it would be more but it is almost impossible with the time difference. We both know that we think of each other all the time. Our teleconversationsn also have become fun. Mat likes to boast that he is tall and handsome now and that he has 6 girlfriends, not upon his request...so he says. He can't break the girls' hearts, so he says. And I like to tease him sayng that he might be making up these stories to make him feel good about himself :)

I have not spoken to him since last weekend. I wonder how his V-day went. But I will surely find out tonight!

After what happened 2 years ago, I think we all need to move on, for the sake of ourselves. We all know that we will still be a family no matter what and the truth is, we will always love each other strongly no matter what. I do not deny that I miss my son ever so dearly. Sometimes so much that I feel that I would like to run and hug him, but......hes too far away and all I get is a heart ache. I know he feels the same.

Our plan is to visit Singapore in December, insyaAllah. Kakak Mas is lucky, we are sending her there to meet her brother in the summer and maybe again in December. At least if I can't make it there this summer, my daughter will be there.

Healing is a long process...and I am glad that we are slowly moving towards it.

Abang Mat, if you're reading this, we ALL think of you all the time. Sometimes, when we go shopping, paps says that he misses buying clothes for you. And I miss messing around with you at the mall :)

We all love you!

Kakak Mas just turned 14 last Friday. I was too busy on that day, did not even think about posting her birthday on here.

It was not easy planning a birthday event for a 14 year old. At first we planned for a slumber party at the Embassy Suites. To us parents, its good as our house would not get messy and the kids could run around as they wish. But then I forgot that she's 14 and not 4. 14 year olds dont really do slumber parties. Then the idea of bringing the friends and her out to dinner came about. She wanted sushi buffet. Mak kau...thats like $25 per person. So no go for us. Since her school was having a school dance on that day, I suggested for her to go to the dance with her friends and then maybe to the movies. Finally she agreed. $100 for movie tickets and snacks for 6 teenagers? Ok kan? Well, thats beside the hot pink RAZR that we bought for her including a shopping spree next week. My birthday's not even that grand!!!

But you know, I think this is her first birthday after a long time. Ever since her brother lives in Singapore, it had taken at least 1 year of her happy life and seems like Kakak Mas is coming out of her shell.

In the meantime, Suraya is 14 months. Still not walking yet. She is practicing hard pushing her cart, tapi tak jalan pun! Thats okay, she can take her time.

One more week of 40 mile commute to Mountain View!!!

If you can see the ticker above ^^^...YES, Suraya is still breastfeeding. She will be 14 months this coming Friday and I truly am still enjoying the bond that I have with her, through nursing.

The husband and the Pediatrician had asked if I plan to wean Suraya soon. Well...I do not have the heart to wean her. Although the Dr says that a baby after 1 year of age, breastfeeding is no longer of nutritional value but more of a 'comforting' value to the baby, I still need some time to wean her. But when I am at work, she drinks cow's milk through the bottle. One step easier for the husband. But once I get home, she and I will share moments among ourselves :)

I have been reading articles on how to wean a baby. But but but, I am still not ready.

Who knows, maybe in a few months, she will wean...hopefully sooner than her potty training hehehe.

In the meantime, 2nd week of class has been a total drag for me. It was 'hurt week' for me. Firstly, I 'cracked' my right neck muscle and had to drive with a stiff neck for 2 days. Thanks to a lady co worker who gave me a good massage to 'tenderize' my achey muscle. Secondly, I strained my right back muscle while trying to get out of another lady co worker's car. I am still aching! I think I am getting old...need a body overhaul!

Here's munchkin doing what she does best!