When you are all by yourself, not reading a book, not watching tv and your husband is asleep (for those who are married lah), have you ever laid in bed and thought about yourself? Not the ah beng that pushed you on the bus, not that stupid female naggy boss or that blogger who was talking about nothing but her holiday in the carribean...but yourself?
What comes into your mind about yourself? Do you love yourself today? Is it cos you completed that project timely and then have enough time to blog? Or that you might have made a change to someone's life or just simply that you have felt the satisfaction of being a mom? Have you ever hated yourself on that day? Did you say something stupid to someone who are not talking to you now? Or did you have a fight with your other half over something so silly?
Overall...on most days, do you love yourself more than the other way round? If you do why?
Or do you really hate yourself now and are in desperate need to change youself for the better?
Sorry, I know that I have been asking a lot of questions. This is how I sound when I am thinking aloud.
Call me selfish, but I love thinking about myself. On how I feel about myself lately and how I could make myself better if I hated myself on that day.
Many a days, I always come home feeling nothing but mentally tired. If I get overly stressed about work on that day, I would work the cr*p out of myself on that stepper or go for 15 minutes walks on breaks. If I feel satisfied with work, I would still feel tired...but in a better mood when I see the family. But please, these moods DO NOT include PMS!
I remember a friend who hated herself so much a few years ago that she shaved her head bald! I thought she was kidding until she showed me her 'gondol' picture. Kesian budak tuh, but her hair has grown (after a few years) and even has the length to do 'rebonding' hehehe...if you are reading this my friend, jangan marah! But she did tell me that she felt so much better after the 'botak' ing incident.
One therapeutic way of destressing (besides retail therapy) , are my cats. They purr when they ask for attention, they give me body massages when they purr to show love to their mommy. How nice eh?
Did you know that I just adopted a Siamese Fighting Fish since December to keep me sane in the office? I have not named him yet...maybe Kenny (like in South Park...'Who killed Kenny!') or maybe Samdol...I don't know, but he sure has given me the 'hope' of staying sane while at work. I am not going to buy that Zen thingy that you can put on your desk, raking the sand and putting shells into the miniature pail and imagine that you're at the beach and then voila! you will feel better....cos my co worker has it. All I need to do is to just to to her office, and start picking shells and rake the sand on her desk!
Any therapeutic ideas on how to stay sane?
9 comments:
Hi Ely, I have been a silent reader of your interesting blog, keep it up! Well one way to sanity check is do yourself up. I will try different ways and colours with my face...kengkadang tu okay, tapi selalunya turn out tak okay, but at least I have a good laugh at myself :)
hey ely, howz yuh been gurl ? keepin' busy hatin' urself huh?!! jgn laa ely.. we get to certain crossroads and cant help but bombard ourselves with all them questions. its part of growth i guess. but thing is we're often so so hard on ourselves. i used to such a self-sabouteur (spelling?) and everytime i wanted to do right with myself, i'm my own worst enemy. sheesh.
but i got over all that (i think heheh) and one of the things i've learnt is to be more forgiving of myself. well of course we must try to be the best that we can be but lets also accept basically the person that we are :)
take care n take it easy you.. hugz
Hey friend at least that blogger who blogs about her Caribbean trip takes it as a form of 'therapiu' mah.
Just the magic word: Say Alhamdulillah when you see good things in others or good things that happen to others and yourself. That's all.
To add on to that perhaps:
Get a good massage,
take up new courses
do night prayers, have conversations with Him, cry cry cry out to Him,
embark on a solo travel somewhere
or what I love best: Spontaneous trips!
And no I'm not that only blogger who talks nothing but trips:p
The list is endless, Ely!
Have I mentioned cutting papers into cut-outs is just as therapeutic?!
Hey, talk to me, woman!
alamak people, no lah i am not depressed. i was just sitting here thinking on what to write and voila...this came out.
ladies, i am ay okay! besides the stress about going to Florida to meet the inlaws and going to the wedding!
so dont worry, i still have 'pinks' on my cheeks. hehehe
They say before you want someone to love you, you've got to love yourself first... Uhhmmm does that sound right? Yah! I think it does... WEdding? IN-laws? Who said that? Hee! Hee! What is therapeutic for my is to sit on my comfortable sofa and just absorb myself with the cross stitch until my neck start to stiffen! Hee! Hee!!!
Try aromatheraphy. Supposedly lah, you burn some fragranced oil that has therapeutic values in an expensive glass/crystal bottle. I have some, tapi semua dapat free punya ;) No way will I want to buy a RM200+ 1 liter bottle of oil and burn ot all away ..... afterwards stress pulak. Eh, defeats the purpose laaaa ....
MJ, yeah thats what i always tell my friends...love urself before others. i wouldnt mind just being in bed watching TV all day!
qoth, we have Lampe Berger, thanks to nazrah for recommending it to me hehehe. when i first burned it, my kitten sat on my bed and went to sleep, seemed like she was high or something hehehe, but she sure was calm at that time! we also use incense and candles to burn. then like what u said, burn the money man!
ailin, hahahaha, thats the best suggestion girl!
hehhe.....
did i see a gerl who went gondol?? hehee... was wondering if i happen to be her? hehhee....
it was just a phase that i was in at that time, i reckon. hehhee.... wld love to do it again, if i cld... if i dont scare my clients away....
now, its a lil sore that i didnt have a copy of that photo. and the only ones that i have were just those which were taken kinda far away and blur.... damnnnn....
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