Finally Kakak Mas graduated from middle school. She graduated with flying colors...GPA of 3.96.

Last week was her graduation ceremony, I cried. Cos I was so proud of her. Her friends, all grown up and some moving on to different high schools and leading their own individual lives.

With Mak

Summer break started 2 days ago. Kakak Mas will be flying to Singapore in 2 weeks when Mak leaves. We will all miss her so greatly, especially Suraya.

In the meantime, work has been great. With mak being around, forces me to leave the office on time and not work on Saturdays and still make my numbers. Maybe its mak's blessing of being here with us.

CONGRATULATIONS KAKAK MAS!!!

With Gabby

'Too cheap for caviar' bff's group...Nikki, Mas, Salam & Elenna

Of course, I have to be in it...hahaha

Got my Palm Centro and I am so in love with it! It makes text messaging a breeze with the keyboard. Yeah it does look small but trust me, it works like a wonder!

My favorite part of this phone is actualy the calendar organizer. As know myself so very well, I am a very forgetful person. With the calendar, I date and mark my calendar for busines, on when I have to call my customers for follow up, to send them cards, etc etc and I love it!

Doing shopping is easy too, pull up the memo and type whatever I need to buy. Don't feel like typing, then use the voice memo. Typing is not a chore anymore on the cell phone cos of the keyboard.

Some of you might be able to see me signed on to my Yahoo! IM almost 24/7. Thats cos my cell is connected to it. Since its the weekend, you guys will see me more :). But dont expect me to come on when I am at work cos you will be badly neglected hehehe.

I have never ever fallen in love with a phone before but I guess this is it! So twin...get it, you will not regret it!

I am learning how to download Suraya's videos and voice memo from my phone, I shall upload it here when I have the time.

In the meantime, work is great. I finally hit silver last month. The aftermath of it? The last push last week was a torture to my body an dmybody hurts!

Who would want to be flying internationally when gas prices are crazily increasing? If its not business, its not cost effective to fly right....wrong!!! According to my mother, no matter what comes, she will be here on Tuesday. Who cares if shes paying double for the ticket (actually, I am repaying her the ticket fare!)...but her heart is set to come to see her 2 grandkids here.

Sigh, which means that I am going to book a return SIA flight to Singapore tomorrow for Kakak Mas so that she could fly to Singapore in July. The cost??? Hmmm, I'd rather not say lah. The most expensive air ticket I have bought to Singapore EVER....and thats after the good 'got connection, kita orang melayu' discount.

With the economy so bad and everything is expensive, I hope we can afford to buy the 4 tickets to Singapore in December. December is getting closer, which means I have to chop chop and think of my financial planning. Gulp...

Oh and a special message to my beloved twin...

We've been friends for more than a couple of years
But it seems like just yesterday that I have known you
I met you here on cyberspace, just like the husband
We became close friends so fast, cos we have so much in common
When we first met, it was like we have known each other for the longest time
You were there for me everyday at that time
We are so far apart now, all the time
But we both know that we are very very close at heart

Sometimes when you are sad, it bothers me
Not that you tell me so, but my soul searches for you
Most times I am right about you
You have been a truly great friend
Would never trade you for anything

Happy Birthday My Dear Nazrah
My talented, beautiful, funny, entertaining, songster, confidante twin best friend
One day...who knows, we might be neighbors, maybe in our retirement years
Who knows....who knows...
I LOVE YOU!!!

Dang, I get teary eyed when I saw these pics...sigh...

Kakak Mas had a Fiesta concert. She played the guitar on a GreenDay Cover song. Shes the one on the left. Elenna is the singer and Nikki is the one in the center.

Retail therapy is always catogorized as the best therapy when you're super pissed, upset and stressed to the limit. I then realized another kind of therapy when I feel the same way...Housework Therapy!!! I know, I do say eeeewww, when someone mentiones it but, when I feel that way, I tend to lipat baju, gantung baju and vacuum ever so fast like a lightning! And then if that doesnt work and you're too tired to go shopping after all the housework, I recommend ONLINE retail therapy. It can be safe, even if you hit the 'add the cart' button cos...when its time to buy and then realize that the shipping and handling charge are too much, you can cancel and log out :)

I think I have done both last weekend. Fast quick laundry, quick pickup under the computer table (the husband loves to leave worn socks under there, sigh) and I had the time to decide which phone I am going to upgrade too. Kakak Mas recommends that I we upgrade our service with unlimited text msging with online IMs. Not that I love to IM when I am out and about but I think that would be a good communication tool for Kakak Mas and me and maybe the husband. I am not a fan of text msging cos its faster to call than pressing the letters that takes longer (I cant text with my eyes closed) but I am willing to give it a try.

This phone enables me to check corporate email, at least when I am away from the office, I wont be backed up with emails. I have contemplated for 2 years, should I upgrade from my Razr...or time to move on? Black or white???

Kakak Mas and her friends, Nicki, Mas and Elenna

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And life goes on....well, it has to right?

Next week is the last leap to make numbers. It had been a challenging month for me. I did hit target 3 days ago, now if I am ambitious enough, I might hit the Silver award. With Monday being a holiday and Ely is so not working this long weekend, after being well rested, I do not regret having 4 days to hit Silver.

A Malaysian friend called me last week saying that she has new contacts with some professional malaysians and singaporeans and that would be a good network for me as they are requesting for an insurance presentation. Who knows, if I can sell the Singapore embassy my products, maybe I can to them too yes?

Its Sunday, husband has to work, again. Looks like the weather is wonderful out there, We just might go to the beach this time!


I am having major PMS. I have been eating whatever comes my way, no holds barred. Diet? Diet can be on hold for a few more days. I am craving for Krispi Kreme donuts, hot chocolate, Thai food cooked by Aminah and more food...I guess??? And I am in dire need of good sleep!!!!

Back to being psychic again. Last weekend, I dreamed of something weird, I could not remember what it was about but it meant that I needed to be very careful one of these days as someone whom I thought I 'trust' would be my enemy (as in backstab me). Well, I really do not have any enemies.

The dream was correct. Someone did start a rumour in the office that I had said something about a co worker...and added more juicy spice to it (imagine how brutal products rumour mills can produce).

This co worker who was the 'victim' was full of sarcasm when she came into the office yesterday which got me baffled. I knew there was something wrong but I let it go. Today, this co worker who was affected by what she thought I had said, confronted me and asked me if I really said it.

I truthfully said that I did mention something about about her but was nothing bad. I mentioned it to highlight how incompetent our management is BUT someone who started the rumour said that I said this and that which were not true. I asked this co worker (victim), why didnt she ask me yesterday instead of being sarcastic to me all day long?

Knowing that she had thought wrong of me, said that she did not think of that (duh!). She said that she likes me and why I had said such bad things about her.

Well, here's what I told her 'You and I have our numbers (production) to deal with. I dont have time to say anything bad about you. If I am not happy with you, you know I would say it out to you'.

She did not apologize for thinking wrongly of me but I guess she was kind of embarrassed that she did so.

Me? I was unperturbed by her actions. You see, I come to work to work. Sure, I dont shut up when I am frustrated with work and I do not reserve myself from that. But to speak ill of others? Hmmm...not my cup of tea.

People can be weird at times. I am glad that this 'victim' co worker came to me to clarify cos if she kept up with her sarcasm towards me, I would be asking her if I had said anything wrong. In the end, she gave me a hug, I was not emotional about it. Why? Cos sometimes I tend to not trust someone who trust the rumor mill...am I making sense?

Sales world can be so brutal. Sometimes when they cant get you, they use others to get you.

Anyway, Allah has given me this great gift of pychic in me. I thank Him for this 6th sense. At least I wasnt caught in this drama by surprise.

Have I ever mentioned that I am psychic? Not that I can read your mind but I can visualize future comings through dreams? Sometimes I can connect to people who are close to me and know if they're sick, unhappy, depressed or anything else. Makcik Melopong and mak had sent me messages through my dreams. Yeah, I know, I am THAT weird but I think its a gift from Allah.

So last night I dreamed of the ex husband. You know, I have dreamed of him quite a bit recently. Not that that he's my 'dream man' anymore (geddit, dream guy? eeew) but something tells me that he is needing some closure since our break up.

Why did I say that? Cos 9-10 years ago when I told him that our marriage was over, I never told him what was wrong. I just told him that I quit. I did not tell him that I was tired of being the one who wore the pants in the house, getting him out of debts...when I was not working and on top of that, being controlled by his ego maniac attitude.

He did not come out of the divorce well. In fact, I think he was emotionally crumbled (I heard that he was in deep depression)by all this, he chose to detach himself from any contacts with his kids, even when they were still living in Singapore. As a result, my kids now are not that close to him...although they hope everyday that their father would sometimes have the sense to call them or send them letters.

Each time now when I dream of him. I did not know how to feel. Noo...I dont have feelings for him but, should I feel guilty for turning him to this kind of situation? Was I selfish when I made the decision to end the marriage? I do feel bad for him as until today, he is still a lost individual.

He is currently living with a girlfriend (Yea as far as I know he has not married her yet), who is 10 years older than him and has 4 kids. My kids said that their father devotes his time more on his 'step' kids more than them (is a phone call that laborous?). I think he is happy...I hope he is cos at least I would feel that I am continuing to put him in depression. But why am I still dreaming of him?

Each time when that happens, I dreamed that he was running after me and trying to give me a hug, asking me to reconcile with him. And all I did in that dream was to be mean to him, yelling at him to stay away from me, or to get over it, etc etc.

Have you heard of this song called Cenderawasih by Dikir Temasek? You see, I played my bunch of malay songs this morning when I was doing massive cleaning. This song came out. You know, when we were going through the divorce, he loved playing this song. The lyrics...its like 'loser' lyrics to me but maybe he was that hurt. Of course my big munchkin does not like this song as it reminds her of him.

So am I feeling guilty for his feelings? I dont know. Maybe I am feeling guilty for not expressing or addressing the real reason on why I wanted out of my marriage. I feel guilty for not providing him the closure.

Does it matter now if I were to ever tell him? Maybe if I did tell him he would do a self reflection and treat his girlfriend better? Or would a World War III break out as always when we speak to each other as he likes to throw cheap shots at me?

I dont know...really. But for now, I hope this dream would stop buggin me.

Dont like this song? Lets be happy and listen to this song instead hehehe...

Okay okay it was I...I did it!!! Hahahaha, the husband and I would laugh each time we see this picture.

My sweet big munchkin posted something on her blog on Mother's Day. Abang Mat wished me happy mother's day, when I called him. You think he would remember? Yeah right!

Heres what Kakak Mas wrote on her blog.



Sunday, May 11, 2008



Happy Mother`s Day!
[to all mothers out there.]


So you know what i did for mother`s day?
Made my mom brownies.
BUT. it came out hard.
NOT burned.
Just hard.
Still edible.
But not my best work.
Hahhaa.



So an hour ago mom & sis & i went to the mall.
She bought me my softball stuff & whatnot.
Im such a loser.
Im suppose to buy her stuff not the other way around!
Every year during her birthday & mother`s day,
i end up broke.
Or almost broke.
That`s just sadd.
So i bought her 2 cupcakes from Mrs. Fields cookies.
To replace the hard brownies i made.
I feel bad.
I wanted to buy her a diamond necklace that costs $100+
But im ALWAYS broke.



Ibu, if youre reading this, im sorry.
I couldnt get you something besides those cupcakes.
It was all i could afford.
I know you always say its okay.
Every year i say " oh ill buy you these & these ..."
But i never keep to my word.
Im sorry.



Youre the best mom i could ever have.
You put a smile on everyone's faces.
You make my problems go away.
Youre always there when i need you.
No one can ever replace the love you give/show me.
I love you with all my heart.
Even when I die, Ill love you eternally.
Im so thankful Allah made you my mom.
I cant thank you for more.
Youre the best of the best.
I love you sooooo much.
Even if i look like you.
Hahaha.
Love you Ibu ♥
Happy Mother's Day!!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL MOMS OUT THERE...

Being a good mom is not as easy as others would think
We had the baby for 9 months in our tummy,
Hours of labor, months of hormone readjustments, months of breastfeeding for some (like me) and droopy breasts thereafter hahaha.

To those who had adopted your child, you are a mother too
You dont have to bear a child to be a mom
Your love, attention and feelings that you give to your child is enough to make you a mother.

Being a mom is hard hard work....and I love you all for that!

To my mak, you know I love you so much!
Muahs...see you in 3 weeks!


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Mothers day weekend is like any other weekend to me. I feel happy. I dont know if its me or I could just feel the love floating around. My customers who called me wished me Happy Mothers Day. How nice...some would give me a hug (the ladies) and wish me a happy weekend.

I had to work today, Saturday. It was nice to be alone in the office at times when noone was overtalking you. But it was shortlived as another co worker came in an hour after me...and thats when we both get sidetracked...on office gossip lah whatelse. Last week was an 'in and out' week for me. Suraya was teething, she took a work day out of me, yesterday was Kakak Mas' Track event and I left the office at 3pm. Funny how when you're not in the office, people start looking for me. When I am in the office, they don't visit me right? But I am all updated with my office gossip hehe.

I told the husband that I wouldnt mind buyng my own Mother's day Mrs Fields Cookie cake. Not that I have given up on the husband to buy me a cake but, I love to pick my own cake for my own occasion...besides being able to pick which restaurant to go to tomorrow. The restaurants that I picked are usually no that packed. Who would take their moms to indian food anyway yea? Thai foods good too. I dont know, but my plan is to bring munchkin to the beach tomorrow.

You know, its high time for anoter new coach purse. But I dont have any model that I am salivating over.

Anyway, here are pics of me when I had munchkin and of me and my bigger munchkins.

Whats there to update about? 3rd day of May. Sales has been good so far, Alhamdulillah. I can't explain the miracle of rezeki Allah. I work for it, He gives whatever deems right for me.

The weather has been wonderful here. Bought munchkin a bikini set for her beach outing tomorrow. Last weekend, she soaked herself in the waves with sand in her pockets. The cold water left her unperturbed but happy. This time we shall revisit the beach prepared, with a camera, her bikini and sun block spray.

Mak is coming in a month. I know that she can't wait to get here, not to see me but to see the girls. I am just the bearer and the feeder of her grandkids so I am not the priority which is fine :)

Monday, May 5th, the husband will hit the big four O. Ahemm, Happy Birthday my best friend (just in case I forget to blog about it). Told you many times already, its not easy having a toddler when you're that old hahaha. Sushi buffet on your birthday okay!

Anyway, here are pictures of Yaya at the zoo, feeding the goats. This girl is not afraid of anything. The cats at home must have given her training on how to feed animals! Now, each time she eats her snacks, she would feed us too, she thinks that we're goats at the zoo...

And here are pics of us feeding the ducks. Gosh..don't we just love feeding the animals! Oh and we bought a playhouse for her too, so there's Kakak Mas and her in the playhouse.

Sigh, here I go again with this song from Avenged Sevenfold...Seize the Day. No wonder I love metal music, they express how I feel. I love metal since I was 13. When I feel angry or emotional, I have it at full blast. I remember going to work on the train in SF, with metal music blasting in my ears. Love it!

I feel do emotional today. Not the emotional cry baby feel but I feel that I miss everyone in my life today...EVERYONE...even the husband who's working right now.

I miss my son
my mak and bapak
my sister and nieces
my twin nazrah
my cousin Aliah
my relatives in Singapore


Have you ever felt like when you live so far away, one day, you wake up and miss everyone? But you're not sad, just have this sense of longing. Like you wish they're a phone call away and then tell them to meet you at pasar Geylang for some nasi padang in 30 minutes.

Many a times when I drive home, drive by the school the son used to go to, I see the teenage boys, how I long to just jump out of the car and hug one of them, any of them, like my son.

Many a times, I wish I could just pick the phone and tell Nazrah my twin to get ready cos we're going to color our hair today and lets eat lunch before we do that hehehe.

Maybe I am just going through this post-PMS crap.

Note to self : I hit Target yesterday, wooohooo, few more days to hit achiever target. Not sure if I can hit it.

Bumped my head against the edge of a metal shelf yesterday at work while bending over to grab my laptop bag. I thought I was going to pass out when that happened. A co worker came up to be from behind to say hello and when I turned and told him what just happened, he said that I literally had a dent on my forehead. Painful??? Can't explain. Walked back to my desk and told my other co worker what happened, she was so concerned and started checking up on me every few minutes, just in case I turned to be delirious. No...I did not speak Russian after that but I saw stars and was sore for hours.

Another co worker told me that I might have a minor concussion. She said that if I went home, not to go to sleep as that would lead to coma if I really had the concussion...thanks for letting me know! This morning, another co worker who works in the city messaged me. I told her what happened to my head yesterday. She said 'You better go see a Dr, Elly. My aunt passed away 12 mths after she hit her head, she had clood clot'...I panicked and made an appointment to see the Workers Compensation Dr.

The Dr saw me and started laughing. She said that I am fine. Just a tiny bump, yes she squeezed the damn bump like a zit...OUCH...I said. She said 'its nothing!'. She dismissed me and said that I do not have to panic.

Who knows that a dent on my forehead would attract so much attention in my office.

Sales this month has been pretty slow, but I am hitting target. A couple for thousands to go and I'd hit that bonus target. I sound so calm eh? Heck, I did not behave this way 2 weeks ago. I was neurotic, so afraid that I would be below target. Alhamdulillah, Allah seems to love me and my family. Apart from the rezeki thrown to us, He managed to keep this 'hamba' sane!!!

Pampered myself a little bit today. Eyebrow and lip wax, pedicure. No shopping...can't think properly when I have this 'dent' on my forehead.

Suraya is learning new things now. She whimpers like a little puppy when she wants something. So irritating that I had decided to let her know that it is not okay to whimper. Amazingly, she listens...at times, okay, most times she listens. She has learned a new way to express herself when shes mad. By throwing her toys everywhere on the floor and then looks at me. What an angel!

Nothing much to blog about really. Nothing eventful has happened. Just stress and more stress from work. Sometimes I ask myself, why lah I decided to go into the Sales force when I have a baby force at home?

I dont know. Its not like I work till 8pm everynight. In fact, the latest I get home is 6:30pm and it takes only 8 minutes for me to get home. But I sacrifice at least 2 hours on Saturdays to go to work just to make phone calls. 2 hours does not seem alot but it is enough to make me feel guilty for leaving my kids.

Some single agents think that married agents like me have balance in our lives. We work hard and play hard. We have 8 hours to make the best out of a day and come 5:30-6pm, we force ourselves to turn our laptops off, bring our laptop home and spend time with our family. 90% of us who have families do not work from home (how to???). As for the singles, sometimes, they do work from home, work till 7pm and half of Saturdays. They go home, think about thier production numbers (I do too!) and then feel miserable. Good thing the kids makes it impossible to think about the numbers.

Sigh...maybe I am going through a transition. I have a history of moaning and whining through transition, kicking and screaming when it gets hard but always manage to hit the target.

Maybe next month, I can handle this stress crap better...InsyaAllah.

In the meantime, I am so happy to have spent the entire weekend with my girls without working on Saturday (next week must work Saturday tho). 48 whole hours of being surrounded by my girls and giving them unconditional love...priceless!!!

Also in the meantime part II, the husband has been working ALL weekend. I hardly see him. But we do talk on the phone a lot. I do miss him so much but what to do. Work is work, at least he came back from work with chocolate covered donuts this morning.

My daughter is in awe, as to how I have lost this much weight (30 lbs or more?) by eating junk all weekend? Take a doze of stress, sure to burn your fats and brains!

Suraya is a pro in walking now. This morning, I forgot to put the gate up by the kitchen entrance. I came out of the bathroom, she walked out of the kitchen and handed me a glass that she had taken from the glass cabinet. She was smiling and I was freaking out! Dont know why she loves the kitchen. If the cats love the kitchen why not the baby eh?

Kakak Mas has been such a couch potato since spring break last week. But she is making good money babysitting Suraya. So much money that she went on a shopping spree last weekend and I just watched, my money gone to her babysitting fees! Perfect sister she is...wish her brother is here too.

Abang Mat is doing very well in school. We are surely on the road to recovery in terms of relationship. We talk on the phone at least once a week, email once a week. He speaks to everyone at home. The other day, he called and said that he was out sick from school. Sakit kepala, so he said. But all was well my dad said, Mat was just getting the blues we thought. We all miss him to death. Believe it or not, he has a girlfriend now. Very mentel right? A girl from CHIJ, her parents are police officers. Good, at least I know he will be in 'good hands' hehehe.

My kids, believe it or not, I miss or should I say LONG to have the 3 of them in front of me....sigh!

Here's Suraya taken last weekend. Isn't she an angel? How to marah her when she does something bad? Those angelic eyes.

This is how you drink bubble tea from the straw...geddit?

Shes a pro in book flipping, she loves to read!

Tell me, how to get mad at her with that face? She smiles 24/7!

This was yesterday. 8 bands played to give me a total taste of Chaos. As much as not a concert person that I am, I love metal and alternative. This one was pretty perfect for me. The kids were standing for 6 hours at the floor near the mosh pit, while I sat at the upper arena, the stadium seats waiting for me and the stage was at eye level.

This is my FAVORITE song

Awesome!!! Will be back when my hearing recovers. In the meantime...

Is it time to update yet? Been 3 weeks since the last one eh?

Work is great! I did pretty good last month, but this month, I have barely lifted off the ground. I made a mistake. I stopped prospecting after I hit my target last month resulting a halt in sales hmmmppph!!! But I have been getting good omens so far. Allah has been giving me good vibes and good signs.

I spent Saturday morning at work, making phone calls. I made 7 calls and I get 1 quote, 2 appointments. A co worker who did 20 calls with only 1 appointment thinks that I have the magic touch in this job cos I always seem to use little time to gain a sale. I dont know, maybe being a chatterbox or having dealt with insurance for more than 10 years has shown that I am THE person to talk to when it comes to insurance.

But...my numbers are still low. 3 applications had been mailed, expecting good sales from them, but my theory is that, when they're not mine, I cant confirm the numbers, arrrghhh! I told the boss that I need business, he says 'You said that last month but you made top numbers, so I dont believe you!' but I was telling the truth. Maybe he knows that I know what I am doing. But geez, I do need to hussle more this week, thats for slacking 1 week ago.

Anyway, last week, I went to visit the San Francisco office where I used to work. A few could not recognize me. Some apologized to me as they did not intend to ignore me. They said that I have lost so much weight, I look different. Yer ker??? I told them 'If you want to lose weight, be an insurance agent, no time to eat!'. I meant it in a good way though. But hey, kinda nice for people to say that I lost weight eh? What I need now is to upgrade this diamond ring...eh no, get a smaller sized wadrobe hehehe. I have no freakin' idea what my size is. No...am not a size 2, husband tells me not to 'diappear' on him. Meat is good hehehe....

Oh before I go, let me ask....

Anyone wants insurance? Anyone???? If you buy insurance from me, I'll be your Fab Agent! Hehehehe...

Life of a 15 month old baby....

Loves to eat popcorn...LOVES!!!

Caught in the act walking away with it...with her bling2 on!

The next day, she decides to take a rest on her tiny little Sesame Street sofa...can't you tell that shes full and happy?

Thats her and her loyal sitter, Kakak Mas

The other day, they decided to take another shot, this time more glamorous.

This afternoon, shes doing what she does best...eating! This time caught in the act with Cheez It

Then she decides to make a phone call

And eat it too!!!

The End...

ps: Click on the pics for bigger and better view

Sometimes you don't know what might come to you each day. When you're in the sales business, when you think that you're not going to sell anything today and are almost half depressed, someone or 2 people would call saying that their mother or cousin or friend needs insurance from you. Sometimes, some would come with grief, maybe to see how far I would handle it. Most times, I manage to handle it and I get more referrals from people.

You see, I have a different approach with people. In Singapore, people would not get close to an insurance agent cos they're pushy. Over here, if you know someone who sells insurance, you know that you will be taken care of. In this 'sue happy' country, everyone needs car and home insurance. People change their insurance companies like changing shirts. Most of our customers here have been with us for decades as we're one of best known insurance companies in the country (Google CSAA Northern California). Some would leave us due to cheaper rates, but come back 2 weeks later as we handle people and claims 200% better than others.

As for me, I am not pushy...yeah right! You're not a sales person if you're not pushy, how TRUE! I am very direct with people, I let them know who I work for and can have conversations with them for a long time without talking about insurance. And then before I end the conversation, I give them my card and tell them 'Call me and lets see if I can save you some money'. Does it work? Most times yes. They would call and ask for a quote, and then I ask them if they would want to do it or not? Some say later, some say yes, some say no. One thing weird about me, when they say yes, I tell them to look at the quote first and think if this is what they really want to do. Most times, they call back and say lets do it and by the way, lets insure my home too.

I can't be pushy...just not my thing. If I can save my customers money, they will stay with me, sometimes I don't save them money, but they end up saying that they are glad thay have an agent to advise them about insurance. I once gave advise on a home insurance and spent 2 hours with them but they ended up not buying it except the auto insurance, thats okay...cos they ended up referring me to 2 other people.

Making a sale is not easy. To make a successful sale and make an impression, I have to bond with the people and make them trust me. In short, I would have to earn it.

BUT, with people I know, I always start off stronger cos they know me. A 'no' is not an offense at all. But if they push me away without giving me a chance, maybe I would feel a little 'ouch' but I move on pretty quick. If I can't beat their price, I would say to stay with their company of choice but thank you for the chance to make business with them.

Sometimes, I feel that I cannot take the pressure, but most times, I enjoy it. I love to see happy customers save money.

Anyone wants to buy insurance from me? Who knows, I could save you some money!

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   So SHE walked today...finally! Its not like she decided to get up and walk but after many days of making her stand and walk instead of crawling to any of us, she finally realized that there is another way of getting to us.
   
   No, she did not walk around the whole house. She made baby steps, literally. Coaxing and cheering involved and then...5,6,7 steps. Oh and she did not take the first steps in front of me, but in front of her loyal babysitter, Kakak Mas, while I was in the bathroom!
   
   Mas was so excited when she saw her little sister walk. She started whipping out the camera, thats how these pictures came about.
   
   There, its in record now that Suraya took her first steps, FINALLY! Is she still breastfeeding....YES!
   
   Note : Notice that 2 of these pics, Suraya had her 'bling' on? She has 4 of them and wears them when she wakes up and takes them off before bed. She must have taken after her mom who loves 'blings' hahahaha.

Our relationship is on the way to healing. Like I mentioned earlier, if we all have the same goal, we will all achieve that goal.

Seems like the relationship between my son and me...and the entire family here is getting so much better. Mat is more receptive and warmer to me. He opens up a lot when he speaks to me...no reservations...feels like I have somewhat gotten my son back, in his heart. He also had phone conversation with the husband, nice chat, warm and...like a family again.

Mat had done very well in school for this semester's CA. He passed all his subjects except Malay (too koyak!), English being his forte, top in class. I don't know how he did it but he made me gloat with such huge pride for him, no words can describe. He made it in school, excelling, just like when he was here..when he was living with us. I only have one conclusion, that I think the husband and I have taught my son good. That his priority in life right now is his studies and family, the latter seemed to have sunk into him much later. But thats okay.

Whatever it is, I am so relieved to tears...that I have gotten my son back.

Ya Allah, thank you for protecting my family. Only you know how I am feeling as a mother right now.

InsyaAllah, we shall reunite again in December.

I did not know that really have THAT much energy. My co workers say that I have too much energy in me that I can explode. They asked me where I get this extraordinary energy?

Who knows right? I have always been like this, nothing has changed. Had another kid, was supposed to tone me down a little...but I dont know. Something must be wrong somewhere.

And then I was on tea break in the break room with my pregnant-with-twins-and-ready-to-explode co worker. I had Diet Coke in my hand. She said 'Now I know how you got your energy, caffeine! You just had Starbucks this morning and I dont think you have fnished it yet...now you're opening a can of Diet Soda!'. Ahemm, and after lunch, I drag her to Starbucks again for some hot non fat and no whip cream hot chocolate. Oh yea....caffeine. Thats right!!! I am a caffeine addict.

So there, mystery solved...Caffeine = Ely.

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Did not know that my son can sing! Well...somewhat sing. If he lives here, I would be telling him shut it.

I miss his voice. Glad he emailed me to serenade me. He initially offered to sing to me over the phone...errr, thats okay my son, this is good enough.

Take a listen... please give the icon a few seconds to load and then click play.